My reply:
     I'm sorry that you're suffering. Difficult situations and/or emotions are at the forefront 
right now. The world is going through such turmoil, how could our individual psyches be 
exempt? I know that you know that life goes up and down, in emotions, health, and mental 
acuity. Please don't think of your evolution as beyond your capacity. God doesn't give you 
more than you can bear.
     Here are my thoughts on what to do when you're in hell. You can't make your emotions 
go away. Everyone has distressing experiences. Trying not to feel what you're feeling only 
causes more pain. You can bury them in your subconscious, but until you resolve the 
underlying problem, they'll come back to bite you. To clear their effects you have to 
acknowledge and examine the gory details, accept what you felt, thought and decided at
the time-- all the mortifying, disappointing, offensive, and infuriating stuff, even if it's 
unpleasant at first. Denying your reactions blocks energy that you could otherwise be using 
for healing and creating.
     Difficult situations offer the opportunity to find meaning in your life, deepen your 
compassion and love, uncover the truth about who you are, what you want, and how to 
make a difference in the world. It helps to talk with people who understand and can assist 
in guiding you through the rough spots. Don't be discouraged. See your situation as a way 
to discover what you need to face so th you can create what you want. We work our way 
back to equanimity by bringing the underlying distortions to light, which weakens their 
power over us. Do your best, and try to be true to your highest instincts. Hold in your 
heart the wish for the best possible outcome.
    Although the workings of the mind and soul are often a mystery, everything that happens 
in your life reflects your purpose, whether you understand what it is or not. We each come 
into life with a personal missionó a lesson to learn, a challenge to meet, or something to 
accomplish. The specific situations you find yourself in are custom-made to show you how 
to untangle the mysteries of your mind and build a life you love. By searching for meaning 
in difficult times, you have a great opportunity to develop your compassion and love, and 
tune in to your own truth. Do your best to be honest and supportive. Pray for the best 
outcome for everyone, including and especially yourself.
     Some symptoms may seem better or worse than others, but they're all troublesome while 
we're experiencing them. But that's the point, and the gift. Until we do what we need to 
become balanced inside, difficult circumstancesó mental, physical or emotionaló are the 
thorns in our side that show us where we're out of proportion.
     As you review a problem, notice and include what you're thinking and feeling. Be honest 
with yourself. Examine both sides of the story. How do they make you feel? Ask your 
symptomatic body parts what they're trying to tell you. What are they associated with in the 
present? What do they symbolize? What memories do they bring to mind? Write it all down.
     If you get images that seem as if they could be past life stuff, think of them as metaphor, 
like dreams. More important than whether it actually happened is if it says something 
meaningful to you. If so, it's worth following through on. Releasing stored-up emotion may 
seem impossible when you feel so hopeless, so helpless. But letting the cycle complete 
itself is productive.
     Change doesn't happen overnight, it comes little by little, more and more, each time you 
bring awareness to the problem. Emotional challenges are part of the human condition. Life 
goes up and down. No one is happy all the time. But with help and insight, your stumbling 
blocks can point you toward a better life. What would you be doing if you weren't feeling 
so bad? The answer to that question is a big step on your path to a new future.
     In the meantime, intersperse your self-examination with meditation and prayer. Find a 
quiet, secure place where you can relax and turn your attention inward. Sit on a pillow or 
chair,lie down on the floor or bed, or recline in the bathtub-- any position that's comfortable 
and not weight-bearing. Counting your breaths is the basic form of meditation, or you can 
silently repeat a word (like "peace") or sentence (like "I can have a good life") to soothe you.
Ask for help in getting clear, in accepting and releasing your distortions. When your mind 
wanders, and it will, come back to your breath (or soothing words.) Imagine the light of 
healing filling the places that feel weak or damaged. Picture the blockage draining away 
down a grounding cord connecting the first chakra, at the base of your torso, with the 
center of the earth, to be purified and recycled into creativity. Spend some time picturing 
what you'd do with that new energy. That's where this process will ultimately lead you if 
you use it well. Even ten minutes a day can make a difference. It adds up. The more you 
can stay in touch with your internal process, the faster it moves. Take good, gentle care of 
yourself. Eat, drink, exercise and rest when you need to. Vitamins, walks, warm baths, and 
little indulgences can remind you of the good things in life.
     Although you're confused and you hurt like the devil, one day you realize you've turned 
a corner and the problem has begun to fade. Then you get new, better opportunities, and the 
same process starts all over again, except that you're wiser about how to get the most out of 
it. Think of this work as a purging, a holy actó your contribution to making the world a 
better place.

Godspeed.